Sad Day...Mondays Are so Hard

A Broken Wing - Martina McBride

She Loved Him Like He Was
The Last Man On Earth
Gave Him Everything She Ever Had
He'd Break Her Spirit Down
Then Come Lovin' Up On Her
Give A Little Then Take It Back

She'd Tell Him About Her Dreams
He'd Just Shoot 'em Down
Lord He Loved To Make Her Cry
You're Crazy For Believin'
You'll Ever Leave The Ground
He Said Only Angels Know How To Fly

And With A Broken Wing
She Still Sings She Keeps An Eye On The Sky
With A Broken Wing
She Carries Her Dreams
Man You Ought To See Her Fly

One Sunday Morning
She Didn't Go To Church
He Wondered Why She Didn't Leave
He Went Up To The Bedroom
Found A Note By The Window
With The Curtains Blowin' In The Breeze

And With A Broken Wing
She Still Sings
She Keeps An Eye On The Sky
With A Broken Wing
She Carries Her Dreams
Man You Ought To See Her Fly

With A Broken Wing
She Carries Her Dreams
Man You Ought To See Her Fly

Some days I just wake up feeling sad.I feel this sense of dread that I cannot explain. It is an emptiness...a loss so dark and still that I cannot fathom how I will ever get out of it. Today is one of those days. Before my feet even hit the floor- the devil had an awful morning planned and if it could go wrong- it would and it has. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry. I miss him..I miss him so much. I want to hold him, see him,smell him, but most of all talk to him. I want to hear his voice....i don't even care if he is yelling...anything is better than nothing. I pray to God and he has this plan, but this awful grief keeps getting in the way. So today- today while the world is functioning all around me, I will barely get by. I will fight back the tears. I will pray noone says or does anything that will set me off. I will spend the day fulfilling my obligations and then I will flee to my home where the memories of him asre so strong that the tears will engulf me and I will succumb to this grief and cry until there is nothing left. My children will look at me dumbfounded...my huband will wring his hands, and I will be trapped once more inside a pain that I fail to understand, comprehend, or avoid. I think I will never do this again, but I will. I will do it again...and again and again....And I will live through. God will give me something tangent to hold onto...a smile, a child's success or failure...a broken situation that needs me...and for a while...I will live again as if Jeff never killed himself...I will function again- But life...life as I knew it- so sheltered and full of dreams is gone...leaving with this sense of reality that in a moments time...your heart can be crushed and stifled until there is no more...

You'll Get Through This...Martina McBride

Pull the shades down on the sun
Don't want to see the morning break to another day
I don't have the strength to face
Close the door and keep it shut
Lord this ache is just too much for me to take
How do I begin to pray

My way back to some kind of peace of mind
But then I hear love whispering through the darkest of times

You'll get through this
You'll break new ground
When you're lost within your weakness
Hope is waiting to be found
You'll get through this
No matter what it takes
I believe in you for heaven's sake
You'll get through this

When doubt starts tearing it
The faith deep in you don't be afraid
Just remember what I say
Nothing formed against you will succeed
As long as your hearts turn to me

You'll get through this
You'll break new ground
When you're lost within your weakness
Hope is waiting to be found
You'll get through this
No matter what it takes
I believe in you for heaven's sake
You'll get through this

Nothing formed against ya will succeed
As long as your hearts turn to me

You'll get through this
You'll break new ground
When you're lost within your weakness
Hope is waiting to be found
You'll get through this
No matter what it takes
I believe in you for heaven's sake
You'll get through this